A client posed a really powerful question for himself in our session this week:
“What would someone do in my situation if they really believed God was for them?”
His practice of late has been to consider his circumstances in light of that question, and choose the most courageous course of action it reveals. Brilliant. My clients consistently amaze me like this.
However, when I consider the question in my own life, the curious thing I find is that, for the most part, I really do believe that God is completely for me. The main struggle I experience isn’t in God’s disposition toward me, but in the nature of the battlefield in which my life finds itself. I wish that life was not war, but more and more it’s apparent to me that it is (Ephesians 6:12-18), and not a war God has purposed to protect us from, but rather to train and develop us in the midst of.
I don’t doubt God’s favor so much as I doubt my own capacity to fight, learn from my missteps, develop new skills, and win. I don’t see it as God’s job to remove me from the war, but to train me in the midst of it so that I can win. My part in that is to not tap out, but rather believe (ours is always a fight of faith), trusting in Jesus’ leadership, and learning from his training just as his first disciples did.
So is God for me? Yes, I believe he is. Will he save me from my deepest struggles? Not exactly. I think he will deliver me in the midst of them. I think he will teach me how to overcome through his wisdom and his grace.
What do you think?